Sunday, February 11, 2007
i feel ohso bad!
i shouldn't have done that. i shouldn't have started it.
it was my fault. MINE and not yours.
i feel very very low. lower than the shortest person in this world.
I'M SORRY, OKAY?
it takes a big girl to admit her mistake. and i'm admitting mine.
i should have known better than anyone else.
you already got it bad enough as it is.
i'm such a fucktard friend.
i'm ashamed to be called YOUR bestfriend.
i don't deserve that, not ever.
i'm also sorry to her. i shouldn't have forced the answers out of you, leaving you speechless with all my nonsensical answers.
all i wanted was to give you high hopes.
and i did it. unfortunately.
i didn't even realise myself that i was actually lying to myself.
god knows how low i'm feeling now.
if only you knew.
if only he knew..
i wish..
V'day is nothing. it started out as a bullshit anyway.