so yeah,
miss ross told me that she chose me to go to Germany&Poland.
i guess this sucks.
faezah wasn't chosen. and i don't think i'll be able to go.
i have to pay around 1.7K.
i'm not that rich.
my mum told me that she would pay and she wouldn't go to australia this march.
with that much disdain sarcasm tone.
like whatever mum.
i'm just telling you that i got chosen.
i'm not saying i want to.


oh God,
pretty please let this be my break.
i want to go badly, but..
oh, i just dunno can?
don't ask me complicated qns now.
i'm afraid i can't answer.




i'm losing myself.
and starting to drive everyone around me crazy.
i don't even know my roots.
i swear paranoia is sinking in.
followed by, stupid thoughts & ugly feelings.
nonsensical perception and awful truths,
oh dhaii! stop listening to sappy songs.






rest assured, because of you, i'm not myself.