I'LL NEVER LET YOU FALL,
I'LL STAND UP WITH YOU FOREVER.
I'LL BE THERE FOR YOU THROUGH IT ALL,
EVEN IF SAVING YOU SENDS ME TO HEAVEN




gawh. i feel so bad.
tears are rolling down my cheeks by itself.
when i heard what you said,
i can't stop myself.
i can't control my emotions.
what hurts the most is that,
i made you cry and i upset you.
and all this while i wanted to stop you from getting hurt by anyone else,
and in the end i was the cause.
i'm such a fucktard.


all this while i only thought about the sacrifices i've made.
i never realised about yours.
that you were always there for me each time,
that you were always right there when i needed you.
and even now, tears are falling down my keyboard.
i didn't seem to think of what i've done.
all the things i did that hurt you so much.
i only thought about the things you did to me,
eventhough what i did to you was 10times worst.
i remembered when you said ILY to me,
it was super funny.
and i thought you didn't mean it.
but that incident made me realise you actually do. =)
i was fortunate to have a bestfriend like you,
and i still do.


i'm asking myself why.
i'm asking myself how.
but i didn't get any reply.
you mean the world to me, i swear.
losing you feels like a bottomless pit,
i can hear our conversation like a repeated trilogy.
i miss everything. 16/3
i thankyou for everything.
this isn't unreasonable, this is too much for me.
and apparently to you too.
i just can't accept the fact, not yet.

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