and then, it triggered my emotions again.
i need the strength and courage to pull this through.
i'm not strong anymore, i'm not wondergirl anymore.
i can't make miracles happen just like that,
i can't do wonders with just my imagination.

at times,
i feel like ending my life.
i imagined being in the operation theater,
with surgeons all around, life and death situation.
then again, i wouldn't want to worry my loved ones.
so, the figment of imagination will just have to wait.
everyday i imagined that a superhero comes by,
and sweep me off my feet.
wouldn't that be great?
that is if fantasy really exists in this world.

what wrong did i do?
what mistakes did i make?
why must life be so cruel, in this love-hate situation?

from Haeqal's quotes;

we have no right to ask when something bad happens,
"why must this happen to me?"
unless we ask the same question for every good thing,
that comes our way

and sometimes we sit there
wondering what our lives look like
through the eyes of another

there's always that one special person
that no matter what they do to you,
you can't let them go.


his quotes really gets to me.
sometimes, i can't help but wonder why issit is he younger than me.
he has a real mature thinking,
that i tend to forget he is in sec3.
and really, he is a thousand time more mature than i'll ever be.

and after reading this quotes,
i realised that i don't need this problem in my life.
it is just an obstacle that i have to face,
there's an even bigger one which is my O'levels.
i don't really need all this nonsense,
since you can forget so easily, why couldn't i?
i'm not gonna lie and say that i don't miss you.
cos i do and everything that has happened.
seeing you hurts me like hell,
but that isn't gonna distract me.
nothing will. =)

you said hope is something we must believe in,
we should try and catch it with all our might.
when i saw you,
you made me believed in hope.
and then you left, for the 2nd time.
now, hope is just another distraction.
and i don't believe in it anymore. thankyou very much.

with everything falling out of place, its safe to say that i'm a wreck. really.
among the crowds, you're the first person i always look for. ♥