Saturday, July 21, 2007
i'd go through any lengths,
if it means i get to be with you.
i'd cry every tear in my body,
if that means you'll come back to me.
but now its over,
like a fairytale end, only sadder.
i wish i could take it back,
like tinkerbell to use the fairy dust.
i wish i could see you another time,
like a photographer to capture you all over again.
i wish i could end my pain,
but unlike you, i can't forget easily.
we were always on the same road,
the same path and the exact route.
we collided a thousand times,
yet we failed to take notice of what is so bare.
we are not suppose to sit and stare,
to pray hard that it'd come to us.
cos it never does,
and it never will.
what are animals without instincts,
and humans without emotions?
is our emotions the reason why we are vulnerable,
that it'd prick us where it'd hurt so bad?
emotions are why i'd cry everytime i see you,
cos flashbacks would rip the soul out of me.
issit why i'd breakdown,
everytime a sad rhythm comes into tune?
don't leave me all alone,
and let your feelings fade.
don't leave me here to wait, without someone to be there.
don't let go of my hold,
and let everything pass quickly.
don't forget the feelings we had,
the first time we met.
(reference to Usah Lepaskan; Taufik Batisah)
and yes,
i feel really weird now.
writing poems at 1240am in the morning is weird,
but it calms me down.
i driving everyone crazy.
pfft, i know okeh.
i'm becoming quarrelsome and more hot-tempered.
that is bad.
i need to change.
i lost three most important people this week.
what about the next week?
what am i to do?
tell me anyone? i really need some advices.
&& my family isn't making it any better.
The day I thought I`d never get through,