Thursday, September 27, 2007
its raining with lightning & thunder;
i walked in the rain, thinking & thinking.
i wished the lightning would strike me & melt away my sorry existence.
but, i didn't.
maybe i could try it again another day.
i dissapointed my parents, time and again.
i didn't expect prelims result to be atrocious.
i was dissapointed beyond words.
The feeling of such dissapointment still lingers around me when i was revising.
i just couldn't get the thought of being a failure far, far away.
Maybe i didn't study hard enough.
To think i focused on Core Geography only to get a stinking B4,
when i was 9marks away from a passing grade for Math.
English; a subject where i'd usually do well.
but no, i got a B4 as well.
okay, to some maybe B4 is good.
but to me, it really suck.
i wanted to cry, but it was my mistake.
Crying won't make me get an A for English. it doesn't work that way.
Science; okay expected that for Biology.
But Chemistry?
there and then, my mood dampened.
I know i shouldn't be dwelling on my prelims but really, its disheartening.
I don't know how i'm gonna do it.
but i will.
i've got my targets all set so, right now; Hardwork is all i need.
okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.
i officially want to burst into tears.
The thought of going to Aerospace Electronics crumbled into teeny-weeny bits.
i don't know how i'm going to fare for the 4weeks that i'm left with.
God, please give me strength.
:(
The day I thought I`d never get through,
